December 10th, 2025- Secret Santa & Dollcember Project
Listening to Akira the Don LOFI CHRISTMAS

This year, I decided to join a Secret Santa project for an art discord chat. As soon as I received my giftee and their OC request, I immediately worked on the drawing right away. I figured it was nice to get that done as soon as possible just in case my health could decline over the holidays... I wanted to make sure I do the Secret Santa gifting on time. I want to share my drawing here, but since, it's not my OC-- I will keep it private. 

However, I have a Dollcember project I want to share! Here's my cute Santa honey from this year:
 

 

December 7th, 2025- Lost in the orb of lights
Listening to Akira the Don LOFI CHRISTMAS

Recently, I went on a lengthy neighborhood stroll whilst admiring the residents' holiday lights and Christmas trees displayed in front windows. I had my headphones on and listened to a playlist of Cambodian 60s pop music-- particularly the super moody ones, some being music covers from folk songs.  Maybe it was just my hormones, but I almost bawled my eyes out as I was admiring some of the holiday lights and was even entranced by the dinner smells from the houses that I walked by. I felt a bit of sadness and joy muddled in one. Maybe what I was feeling was a piece of nostalgia from someone else's experience? Perhaps a bit of the longing feeling? A feeling of homesickness? Am I falling in love with an idea, place & time that doesn't even exist? As I was looking at the neighborhood Christmas lights, I felt like I could cry, dream and waltz at the same time! I believe this is just me with my daydreaming personality.  

To any readers who are interested and curious to experience my feelings, here's my playlist: 

Chhoen Malay- You Are Ruthless
Ros Sereysothea- Remember Still 
Sinsamouth- Permanent Treasure
Sinsamouth- Love Is Enough(Summer Kisses, Winter Tears cover)
Sinsamouth- Bopha Cheangmai
Sinsamouth- No Longing

Or you can just make any playlist of any dreamy sounds-- you will get the idea. Most songs by Roy Orbison should work! With your headphones on, find a neighborhood/ district in a beautifully decorated place, make sure to go on a walk during a peaceful hour with your headphones on.

*Please do not confuse me as a person who yearns over the past. That's not actually the case here. 


I guess I've been so caught up with my personal quiet time, that I haven't been able to interact with my friends for a week-- it's time for me to message them! 

November 25thth, 2025- Seven Months Blog Free
Listening to a t c a f e lofi Hip Hop

It has been about seven months since I last updated my last blog entry-- the last time I updated was one entry from Spring 2025. I just have been so preoccupied with hobbies, tasks, health, homemaking and social connection (twitch streams and live voice chats). I will say the past months for this year, I feel I was able to prevent myself from doomscrolling. As much as I enjoy certain content from scrolling through apps, going overboard can definitely lead to brainrot. -- I am glad I was able to load myself with healthy-and-productive activities for most of 2025. Does this mean I am perfect with my priorities? Absolutely not. I sometimes been watching those really ridiculous C-Drama shorts ironically, I can't help it because  my online girlfriends have been sending these clips to me. There are a lot of insane ones, but there's a few that are actually well-made (art house level of direction). So many plots involving rebirths, CEOs, revenge and Cindrella-esque situations.  I don't regret watching the shorts with cursed plot lines because they're kind of campy and was learn basic Mandarin from watching these. I guess you can see this is our generation of Days of Our Lives. 

My last winter felt like the holidays were cut short-- for reasons that we cannot control. This year, I am hoping to a smoother time.  I need to find a holiday dress-- I will have to see if my closet has anything that still flatters me. 


Art 2025 - Here are some artwork I've made from this year:

For Spooky Szn 2025, I drew tarot-card style for my OC monsters. I've managed to do three prompts because I've been pretty busy that month.

 

I attempted to only draw one Zodiac character for Spring and did a DTIYS illustrations from a couple of streamer artists. 

 

These are the drawings that I did from last spring & summer. The ice cream couple was a redo of an older drawing. The starter kit was based on a trend that involves no AI.

 

I got back intro traditional art. I basically started doing impressionistic paintings with roses (not pictured) and ended up painting a holiday cat meme because it makes me giggle just thinking about this kitty. 

I am thinking of deleting my Cara account. I just find the site pointless for me. I feel as if I could just build my own portfolio site with my drawings instead. 

Currently, I'm doing my very best to work on my speed and be consistent with my drawings. There are times when I just want to finish all my tasks in one day. Obviously, that's just unrealistic. 

Anyway, if any of you want to join my drawing prompt, here's mine for the holidays:


Fitness 2025  For the most part, I've been keeping up with cardio and video workouts. All I know is that if I don't keep up, I would feel sick and my gut would not cooperate. No, I don't have the physique of a Street Fighter character BUT I feel stronger and I need my bowels to remain happy. I do get comments like "YoU'rE wOrkInG oUT? bUt yOu aLreaDy LoOk gReAT" I have to remind some of my friends that I don't engage in fitness solely for vanity reasons-- I treat this as my personal medicine-- doctor's orders. As another friend have said, "looking great and feeling great are two different things". 

Social life 2025
Last month, I made some new friends by collaborating in a Silent Hill F game. I don't care for others' objections with this game, I enjoyed the story line and it healed me! There were some things I can relate to the characters in the game. Spoilers: One of my worst nightmares in life is not having the ability to explore my dreams; I don't like the feeling of getting my wings clipped. That was what the main character of Silent Hill F was facing.  The puzzles were a lot of fun and it wasn't super scary to watch ( I don't mind that). A friend of ours who was controlling the combat exchanged language lessons-- he basically swapped the translation text in the game to learn English from the group. 

I personally don't find HelloTalk to be helpful when it comes to language lessons XD especially if you're a woman 

As for physical, local friends-- Bern's friends Dragon and Koala has been pretty good about penciling their time to hang out with him. I finally hung out with my former coworker from years back, we got coffee and went thrift shopping together. As usual, she dresses so beautifully-- her personality is always full of sunshine. I am happy that to hear that she upgraded her career life and didn't tie herself down to a toxic workplace that we worked at. 

I recently joined a Secret Santa for a community made by one of my favorite streamers. I believe I will be getting the giftee's name assigned by the Santa bot. 

Beauty 2025 (Not part of my resolution) 
I've been wearing a lot of warm tones-- I know the color red suits me, warm red in particular. I believe my makeup skills improved since the 2010s. After going through some personal meltdowns from 2020, it's nice for me to be able to wear makeup a little more often.