December 16th, 2024- Cookies hangout & refrigerator malfunction
Listening to Christmas At Jingles

As I said last month, I knew this December would be kind of a busy month for my partner and I! My folks stopped by; a couple of friends wanted to hang out with us over the weekend. I haven't seen my parents in person since last Spring, and we hung out with our friends (let's call them Koala & Dragon) separately last month. Basically, I made sure to keep our place tidy! We got Koala to watch archived Christmas specials for Saturday evening; just lowkey conversations of Christmas lights, their office parties, and vintage holiday specials. Dragon came over the next day to play some video games with Bern; lots of fun-competitive plays and energetic bursts. They played Super Monkey Ball. Out of all of Bern's local colleagues, they've been great about keeping in touch with him.

I baked brown butter cookies! The first batch came out a bit well done (still delicious), but I cut down the next cooking time down to a minute less and it came out perfect, with a bit of the chewiness in the middle. I also baked persimmon bread, with persimmons that I received from my parents' place. This year, they turned out humongous. My family is pretty green-thumbed.


Oh, and so we finally picked up a Christmas tree; a fresh Noble Fir. It's been a week and it didn't dry out yet! For once, we used our own tree stand because we want room for the train toys to pass around the tree. You know how some people got miniature water fountains in their homes, with the sound of water as their asmr? Well toy trains are Bern's kinetic stimulation. I enjoy the presence of trains. I finished decorating the tree in a couple of days; it was very relaxing because I love taking my sweet time. I went with the usual: second-hand ornaments, gifted items, incandescent lights and collected pieces from the past years. I watched a bit of Kirsten & Joerg's holiday videos in the background-- they're very cozy and wholesome! They're such a handsome couple; charming personalities. I love their taste-- which is just classic deep red/ hunter green Christmas, with warm colors...similar to mid 90s holiday decors. They remind of some day time slice-of-life programs from local tv stations that partnered with PBS. Some people made comments that they lowered the blood pressure-- and they're correct!


My sister bought me some cute gifts!  I told her that she did not have to since I couldn't get her anything beyond the cupcakes and cookies that I've baked for her. She loves shopping for other people; no one can stop her. Literally no one. I'm going to save my stickers for scrap booking! She also got me practical things: mobile phone suction & slippers.

I also need to plan my birthday. I think I have an idea, but not exactly sure what I want to do during my birthday. If we do end up eating out-- it will be an outdoor sit-down place. Part of me wants to do a bit of window shopping at malls/ downtown areas, but I can't be in a place of crowds during the holidays in this timeline. I'm okay with  flea markets/ open air places. I guess I can always search up some local museum stops & light installations.  I'm lucky to live in area with a bunch of landmarks that doesn't involve indoor spaces. Since our refrigerator is unreliable for the third time , I'm just going to skip out on baking myself a cake. There's no point in using up buttercream, eggs, ganache for them to go to waste. Dealing with improper food storage would frustrate me , it would be unsafe to consume them. I may also have to avoid preparing dinners that requires overnight leftovers, just incase. If this continues this whole week, I would be okay with getting a local Chinese food takeout if any are open during Christmas day. Perhaps I'll end up having a 90s romcom movie* dinner for holidays.

*Okay, I know the link isn't really from a romcom movie nor is it from the 90s. But Sandra Oh looks like she could've starred in an iconic one.


Well despite our refrigeration malfunction, I was able to decorate and I had some time to work on my art! Here is my Drawcember art atm:



I made a Drawcember prompt list for myself just to simply get sucked into a festive mood. At least for me, it's pretty effective. Got my holiday movies in the background; hot cocoa around (but not close to my tablet). Yes, I'm a tad bit upset that I won't be able to cook my favorite foods but I'm also grateful things I'm able to do. Aside from essential needs....there's not a whole lot for me to ask for.

November 28th, 2024- The urge to go on a roadtrip with a lawnmower
Listening to Cozy Christmas Cafe With Animal Crossing

As I was preparing my dinner rolls dough, my mom called me earlier today wishing me a "Happy Thanksgiving". Then with concern, she asked me if my sister called me; apparently she caught a flu and haven't recovered. Not exactly sure how or where she caught the flu but hearing her getting sick made me anxious. I believe she caught some things in the past five years-- I hope it doesn't take a heavy toll on her body. I told my mom that I received a text from her related to pop culture news and such, so it seemed like she was doing fine.

Have any of you seen David Lynch's The Straight Story? Do you have sibling(s)? Not a spoiler: The lead character of this film, an elderly man by the name of Alvin Straight, gets a call from his niece that his younger brother fell. Hearing that information made the lead character panicked... his driving license is no longer good so he decides to take a road trip journey on a lawnmower to see his elderly-baby brother. He wants to go see him before it's too late. 

I felt that. The bond between the Straight brothers. My sister isn't old and neither am I, but we both got health needs in different areas -seeing how things have been these past years made me cautious about how our physical health can turn out.

"I think I may have to head back to ER tonight"  my sister texted. Even my mom was feeling a bit uneasy. My parents did offer to travel to her place for a wellness check, but according to my mom, she told them not to. So maybe it's not that serious? I don't think she is stubborn about asking for help if she needs it. I'll have to check back on her tonight or early morning to see if she's recovering.

I've been mostly in the kitchen all morning with 80s/90s M4cy*s Parade in the background, watching some of the clips ironically and praising certain performances. Bern basically vibed in the background as well. There were some interesting Broadway numbers/ creative floats but there were also some questionable/ outdated presentations as well. Watching the clips, we were able to gain fragments of insights on the culture and the attitudes of that time.  So please note that because of our awareness of the historical past, we're NOT one of those people who romanticizes everything from our childhood era. Some things are meant to be kept in a time capsule-- that's perfectly okay for us. We want to move forward.

Bern got some days off, which means he got time to rest, disassociate & work on his personal projects. I'm really hoping my sister pulls through. I told her to make sure she gets plenty of fluid. Luckily, she got friends nearby to help out!

Anyway to my American friends: I hope you all are having a nice day off with loved ones (or alone if that's preferable)! Please take care of yourself & stay healthy!
 

Here are my photo dump of food pics:
 

All prepared & made by me! I'm addicted to my mango-orange vinaigrette.

Journal update:
Seems like my sister is pulling through! She's just at the recovery stage of coughs and having a bit of a chest pain. No pneumonia atm. Probably will have a follow up the next week if she doesn't get better. I told her to have the humidifier around and eat soupy foods. I feel so bad for her because her housemate (landlord) isn't being reasonable to her and her room mate. Just seeing screenshots of texts & social media posts makes me want to scream for her-- I'm normally not the kind of person who yells. Fortunately, my sister is moving out; her plans got delayed because of the flu. My family and I are sensing she might not get her security deposit back, which I wonder if that could be illegal? Hmmmm we shall see.
 

November 27th, 2024- Closet Clean Up; Errands
Listening to Night Tempo

Over a decade ago, I made some shopping errors: one of them happened to a giant Betsy Johnson bag, made of pleather. I'm starting to find that some of my pleather clothes are starting to peel, with the outcome of tedious clean-ups.

I loved the bag-- got quite some use from it. The chains seems pretty sturdy and bag liner is good shape-with such a cute cherry printed fabric! I just loathe how the exterior turned out over time. I'll have to find a way to salvage the pieces that are still intact, it would require a heavy-duty seam ripper to take them apart. As years passed, I find that I need purchase my needs with care and strict examinations. Luckily, I still have some other purses/bags that are in decent quality within my small collection... my best ones are my second-hand bags gifted by my aunt & mom (80s fashion).


It started raining this week; just a week of errands. Now that I got them out of the way, I can finally rest. Oh never mind, I still got a bit of house tasks to work on. Also, I'll be hanging out in the kitchen prepping some things. I don't know if I'll be able to get back with my artwork and do a little bit of my game logs until the end of this week.

For my OOTD: I had a sweater duster, newsboy hat, white boots, deep green sweater, & gray skirt all with solid colors. I guess I'll call it Snoopycore Autumn? Yes, I know I'm a bit of a basic witch when it comes Snoopy, but I have a connection to the character for hometown reasons. These ensembles don't quite flatter my kibbe  silhouette and that's okay because: 1. it was an uneventful day 2. there's no need to disregard comfortable clothes when it still fits.


Took some photos during my errands. Bern and I hit rush hour as we head back home, we basically played, "Eye Spy Games" with Christmas lights and old food signs. We drove through several neighborhoods with some festive lights and took notes of some diner places that we passed.

November 19th, 2024- Episode 7 of Dan Da Dan- my reactions
Listening to Wait For Me- Maggie Cheung

I pretty much felt gloomy after watching the seventh episode of Dandadan series, it was a bit of a surprise to catch a serious tone from a comedic anime about ghosts and aliens. Bern was saying how the theming of Dandadan (not to confuse it with style) felt like a David Lynch's writing approach on tragic characters. When he mentioned that, I knew what he was talking about! The Acrobatic Silky's past reminded of Laura Palmer's and Diane Selwyn's backstory from Twin Peaks and Mulholland Drive. All three of those characters experienced intense trauma that were beyond their control, it's as if society has failed them all.

Bern also pointed out that the 'Aliens' from Dandadan felt like they represent toxic masculinity, they're about domination, control and strong desire to take over the human race. With all the 'ghosts' symbolizing femininity, they tend be filled with rage- years of pain building up over time. Every time a ghost gets 'tamed' in the series, the viewer in the end begins to understand and sympathize with the spirits. It seems as if all the spirits were once human, trying to survive life and got hit with brutal death/ or passed with no peacefulness in mind.

Both Bern and I love hearing Nerdy Daily's comments, we've been watching his I pretty much felt gloomy after watching the seventh episode of Dandadan series, it was a bit of a surprise to catch a serious tone from a comedic anime about ghosts and aliens. Bern was saying how the theming of Dandadan (not to confuse it with style) felt like a David Lynch's writing approach on tragic characters. When he mentioned that, I knew what he was talking about! The Acrobatic Silky's past reminded of Laura Palmer's and Diane Selwyn's backstory from Twin Peaks and Mulholland Drive. All three of those characters experienced intense trauma that were beyond their control, it's as if society has failed them all.

Bern also pointed out that the 'Aliens' from Dandadan felt like they represent toxic masculinity, they're about domination, control and strong desire to take over the human race. With all the 'ghosts' symbolizing femininity, they tend be filled with rage- years of pain building up over time. Every time a ghost gets 'tamed' in the series, the viewer in the end begins to sympathize with the spirits. It seems as if all the spirits were once human, trying to survive life and got hit with brutal death/ or passed with no peacefulness in mind.

Both Bern and I love hearing Nerdy Daily's comments, we've been watching his One Piece reactions. His articulation with this episode  was very beautiful,

"In not leering at her, not even showing the men, it is instead completely about her perspective. It centers her pain in the story and her anger and it so deeply allows us to emotionally connect with what she becomes, the spirit of vengeance.."

Similar to how Diane Selwyn from Mulholland Drive was a lindy hop dancer, we learned that the Acrobatic Silky ghost happened to be a former ballerina-- both were living in poverty with the harsh work life that involves moonlighting. Diane Selwyn's rage snapped from the feeling of rejection and humiliation, being crushed by Hollywood dreams. The Acrobatic Silky's case was about having her daughter being taken away from a group of yakuza, probably had a mountain of debt that she could not pay back on time.
 

As you can see from my updates, I made a new blog page layout revolving around the Nutcracker, pink tulle and frosted snowflakes. The ballerina gif is a coincidence with Acrobatic Silky character-- it is unrelated, I promise. I got my design inspiration from a number of memories: the Nutcracker ballet plays, mom's shabby chic bath set, a white gold locket gifted by mom, shopping at Claire's during the holidays, and Lipsm4ckers makeup collection filled with glitter. Just like my autumn layout, the profile picture drawing was done by Bern, from iphone doodle.

Not counting the tree, I managed put all our holiday decorations up! We have a small space, so it was a pleasant way of storing our Halloween decorations away. I find that boiling a pot of water with slice lemons, cinnamon sticks, nutmeg, ginger and cloves really brings out the cozy atmosphere. We even had a friend (Bern's colleague) over this past weekend, apparently he was in Scotland weeks ago during Halloween and showed us some scenic pictures.

Bern and him talked about their creative projects and caught up with their updates in their social circle.  Since we'll be inching towards a bunch of festivities, we did get into a conversation on nostalgia and our family customs. We all grew up with different traditions, customs and such; we talked about the food we loved as kids and *certain* family events that weren't pleasant. Our friend grew up in another Anglophone country from a different continent & season pattern, so his experiences were drastically different from our childhood. It was quite interesting to hear his family's customs.

Between Bern and I, while we're pretty much from the same hometown and had the collective 90s American public school experience, ours slightly differs because I was raised by a large household, predominantly Asian. Bern grew up with the Tommy Pickles' holidays, like in a cultural sense. Bern was explaining to his friend that we both ended up making new traditions for ourselves as a couple living together; our holidays became pretty magical once again ever since we started dating fifteen years ago. It became even more magical ever since we started moving in together. Having a place where a couple can set their own rules and lifestyle really makes quite a difference! Don't get me wrong, we love our parents..we're just adults who needs our own kitchen space whilst still being in one place. I'm lucky to have a partner who enjoys my decorations

Do you guys have any special plans for this upcoming month? Or any stressful plans to dodge? Whatever the outcomes, I hope it all goes well for you all!